Here is the situation. I've been painting a mural in a room spa for over 8 hours in one day recently. I was twisting, turning, and stretching my body in all possible directions, painting in very dim lights. After a long day I came out of the room to take a break in a waiting room. A guy in his 50-s was sitting there. He looked at me with fake excitement and said “Here is our Picasso!"
"Maybe I'm better than Picasso," I replied.
The guy stared at me some more, sitting, oh, so comfortably in his chair.
"His paintings are worth millions," he said.
Now that's the point where I’m boiling inside but behave like Ally McBeal- the character of popular past TV series. She imagines what she would do to a person who insults her but says nothing smiling politely instead, just what's expected from her (a successful lawyer).
Being an artist I get caught in these kind of situations constantly when this type of people ( I call them either too brave or not very smart) challenges my patience and breaks down my sense of self-worth. This is where the guns come in. It’s when your inner self get constantly challenged, sometimes even attacked by insensitive people for many years over and over again with their rude remarks or just insensitive thinking process. This is when so called “normal” person goes nuts killing people unexpectedly in “senseless” rampage. While there is NO excuse for shooting people and I’d never do it myself, I understand some people who shoot others. They do it out of incredible frustration. When their boundaries have been violated so many times, one day they decide to project their pain onto others. Words often hurt a lot more than actions. Although I’m far from being perfect, nowadays I think what I say. And I’m responsible for my words.